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Aug. 9th, 2005 07:30 amHappy Birthday, ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
sherrold. May your day be filled with sunshine, gentle breezes and cake.
sherrold. May your day be filled with sunshine, gentle breezes and cake.Thanks and Update
Aug. 1st, 2005 12:44 amThank all of you guys for your kind words about my diss draft. I took Friday night off to play around at Disneyland (I was not on the roller coaster of doom). New Space Mountain is really extra cool and the 50th bday fireworks are pretty cool, too. Next time we have to have a better viewing space. Then Saturday the SO and I went on a hike with my now retired department chair/father figure. My legs are killing me but the air was cool, the sky was clear and the mountains were beautiful. Since I really haven't been outside much for the past six weeks, it was good to see some nature.
Today I was back in the saddle, proofreading and revising. I read the whole thing through and am now going to send it off to the adviser because I am out of time. Which pretty much harshes on my happiness about being done what with all the anxiety about what work she will find for me to do. But tomorrow opens up a 3 week period hectic craziness. Tuesday I leave for 4 day conference on teaching. Right after I come back my 15 year old niece is coming to visit. (You may wonder if I am crazy with the whole voluntary teenager encounter. And you're probably right.) Then I will have some time to turn my attention back to the revisions I know the adviser will demand. But this way if she has it the draft isn't just sitting on my computer being ignored. Still, sigh.
Thank you all the kind words and thoughts and support. I do have some powerfully wonderful friends and that makes me very happy and very lucky.
Today I was back in the saddle, proofreading and revising. I read the whole thing through and am now going to send it off to the adviser because I am out of time. Which pretty much harshes on my happiness about being done what with all the anxiety about what work she will find for me to do. But tomorrow opens up a 3 week period hectic craziness. Tuesday I leave for 4 day conference on teaching. Right after I come back my 15 year old niece is coming to visit. (You may wonder if I am crazy with the whole voluntary teenager encounter. And you're probably right.) Then I will have some time to turn my attention back to the revisions I know the adviser will demand. But this way if she has it the draft isn't just sitting on my computer being ignored. Still, sigh.
Thank you all the kind words and thoughts and support. I do have some powerfully wonderful friends and that makes me very happy and very lucky.
The Squee of Accomplishment
Jul. 28th, 2005 10:44 pmIt's been a long six weeks of nothing but dissertation revisions. Nothing. But. Revisions. And tomorrow I have to read what I wrote today and revise more.
( Cut for the self-absorbedness of it all )
I am enjoying a nice drink and whatever mindless TV I can find.
ETA: Iolaus is hot. Tequila is good.
( Cut for the self-absorbedness of it all )
I am enjoying a nice drink and whatever mindless TV I can find.
ETA: Iolaus is hot. Tequila is good.
I usually complain that I have no poetry gene. But I've been reading some poetry lately, mostly by accident and this one struck me as a cool riff on an recurring theme. I want to be able to find it again some time and given the state of my desk, this is the most likely place I can think of to find it again.
Motto
I play it cool
And dig all jive
That's the reason
I stay alive.
My motto,
As I live and learn,
Is dig and be dug
In return.
Langston Hughes
Motto
I play it cool
And dig all jive
That's the reason
I stay alive.
My motto,
As I live and learn,
Is dig and be dug
In return.
Langston Hughes
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Apr. 18th, 2005 10:54 amThank you all for your kind words and support in the past week. I have a couple of poems that were a comfort I want to share here.
We who choose to surround ourselves with lives even more temporary
Than our own live within a fragile circle, easily and often breached.
Unable to accept its awful gaps, we would still live no other way.
We cherish memory as the only certain immortality never fully
Understanding the necessary pain....
The Once Again Prince, Irving Townsend
( Dignity by Marge Piercy )
We who choose to surround ourselves with lives even more temporary
Than our own live within a fragile circle, easily and often breached.
Unable to accept its awful gaps, we would still live no other way.
We cherish memory as the only certain immortality never fully
Understanding the necessary pain....
The Once Again Prince, Irving Townsend
( Dignity by Marge Piercy )
The Season of the Daddy Issue
Mar. 30th, 2005 12:54 pmIt started innocently enough with Alias. But now it seems that every show I'm regularly watching has some major Daddy issue, with the possible exception of Gilmore Girls, which is much more the Mommy-issue show. Battlestar Gallactica. Check. Major Dad issues. Ditto Lost and Smallville. Boston Legal, even. And I love Veronica Mars a lot and I especially love her dad, he's got my award for most functional, healthy dad on the list of dad shows I'm watching this year(there's no way that SpyDaddy or even Admiral Adama are going to pass for "healthy" regardless of their love for their kids and abilities to function under pressure).
( Veronica's Mom, on the other hand )
I'm ok with the season of the Dad issue. Looking forward to tonight's Alias.
( Veronica's Mom, on the other hand )
I'm ok with the season of the Dad issue. Looking forward to tonight's Alias.
Resolution and relief
Mar. 23rd, 2005 10:07 pmWell, yesterday I was pretty hysterical. I worked myself into a real state of anxiety and was greatly comforted and consoled by wickedwords, destina and strangerian.
( following up yesterday's drama )
Thank you, friends, for your love, support and recs. I really needed the distraction last night and you guys helped so much! I spent some time reading them last night and now I am curling up for a bit more reading before crashing tonight. Comments about the stories post haste, I promise.
wickedwords, destina and strangerian.( following up yesterday's drama )
Thank you, friends, for your love, support and recs. I really needed the distraction last night and you guys helped so much! I spent some time reading them last night and now I am curling up for a bit more reading before crashing tonight. Comments about the stories post haste, I promise.
failings and fallibilty
Mar. 22nd, 2005 07:08 pmThis has been a really crummy couple of days. Rarely have I so fervently wished I had chosen a different career path.
( Enormous whinging here )
What I need is something to read to distract me from my career anxieties. And I am really anxious about this. Vibrating with anxiety. All recs welcomed. Please?
Plus, it's raining like stink. Again. With thunder and lightning and torrents of raging water in the streets. I don't want to drive home from school until it tapers off a bit.
( Enormous whinging here )
What I need is something to read to distract me from my career anxieties. And I am really anxious about this. Vibrating with anxiety. All recs welcomed. Please?
Plus, it's raining like stink. Again. With thunder and lightning and torrents of raging water in the streets. I don't want to drive home from school until it tapers off a bit.
Friday Fannish 5
Feb. 18th, 2005 11:48 pmGacked from musesfool
Who are your 5 favorite characters of color
1. Zoe Warren (Firefly)
2. Marcus Dixon (Alias)
3. Teal'c (SG1)
4. Charles Gunn (Angel)
5. Sayid (Lost)
These were really tough choices. I feel bad that I left off Frank Pemblton from Homicide and Danny Woo from Witchblade. Oooh, and Warrick Brown from CSI:The Real One.
In other news,destina really saved tonight's SG for me, though it hit my embarrassment squick pretty darn hard. See her commentary here.
musesfoolWho are your 5 favorite characters of color
1. Zoe Warren (Firefly)
2. Marcus Dixon (Alias)
3. Teal'c (SG1)
4. Charles Gunn (Angel)
5. Sayid (Lost)
These were really tough choices. I feel bad that I left off Frank Pemblton from Homicide and Danny Woo from Witchblade. Oooh, and Warrick Brown from CSI:The Real One.
In other news,
destina really saved tonight's SG for me, though it hit my embarrassment squick pretty darn hard. See her commentary here.
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Feb. 16th, 2005 12:00 amI may never recover from the trauma that was Gilmore Girls tonight.
I even went looking for spoilers.
Gah. I have lost my mind.
*wanders back to the books at hand*
I even went looking for spoilers.
Gah. I have lost my mind.
*wanders back to the books at hand*
busy busy busy
Feb. 10th, 2005 07:24 amI cannot believe how busy I am. It's icky. To the good, one more chapter draft completed. Also completed, the syllabus for class that begins today. To the less good, the lecture for the other class that meets today is in a very drafty format and I have very limited time to complete it. To the bad, I haven't been sleeping well. Nightmares dominate my sleep cycles and they're not your run of the mill chased by mysterious strangers or drowning in the sea of sharks nightmares either. (I don't really mind drowning dreams because I am a strong swimmer and I can usually console myself after those nightmares. So my subconscious needs to undermine me in other, more debilitating ways.) No, these dreams are much more sinister and humiliating. To give myself a break from the dreams and try to give my mind other images to focus on, I went climbing with a friend this past weekend. We went to Hanger 18 and I did my first climbs. This is really, really fun. So yesterday afternoon, my climbing friend, who is significantly busier than I am, said "climbing?" and I responded "climb on." It is great fun. I feel so strong and confident, climbing up that wall. It's hard to have a hobby that requires two people and then have no one to go with you, which is how I got into going on Sunday in the first place. But in addition to adding to my boogie-board karma for next summer, it is fun to strap on that harness and pull myself up that wall. I thought being tired and sore from two hours of climbing and belaying would guarantee me better sleep but that was not to be. So I'm off for a very busy and stressful day without enough sleep. Tonight may require stronger measures (eyes tylenol pm grumpily). Right now coffee coffee and more coffee.
Signs and Wonders
Jan. 24th, 2005 09:45 amSo, as I am recuperating, all caught up on TV and too zoned out to read anything I want to remember tomorrow, I get conned into watching a film my SO needs to see for a class he's teaching (Jesus in Film). So, next thing I know, Godspell is in the DVD player and SO is singing along, returning to his musical loving roots. And suddenly I say, "hey, Jesus looks familiar." And lo and behold. I bring you good tidings of great cross-over joy. Victor Garber, a very young Victor Garber, a.k.a. Spy-Daddy, is Jesus. Nice hands, pretty singing voice and a hop, skip and loving jump around the Gospel of Matthew. Suddenly I have a whole new perspective on Spy-Daddy raising Sloane from the dead.
Baby Spy-Daddy was very cute. Adult Spy-Daddy owns my world, so suddenly watching Godspell became a whole new, and fun, experience. I may be the last person to know this, but it still made my entire, sick-a-bed weekend.
Baby Spy-Daddy was very cute. Adult Spy-Daddy owns my world, so suddenly watching Godspell became a whole new, and fun, experience. I may be the last person to know this, but it still made my entire, sick-a-bed weekend.
quick update
Jan. 23rd, 2005 11:39 amI feel rotten. On Friday I had to go to the Dr. and get the No More Vomit Shot (tm) that I got a couple of years ago. My bum still hurts. The Dr. said I have a very contagious common virus. Next week I will be eying all my students in a suspicious manner, looking for tell-tale signs of recuperation from sudden, dehydrating illness.
On the up-side, I did get to catch up on a bunch of TV, including Carnivale. Now I can appreciatetzikeh's commentary more fully. However, due to diminished brain cell capacity (see para above), I will refrain from comment at this time.
Off to drink something more and find something to watch.
On the up-side, I did get to catch up on a bunch of TV, including Carnivale. Now I can appreciate
tzikeh's commentary more fully. However, due to diminished brain cell capacity (see para above), I will refrain from comment at this time.Off to drink something more and find something to watch.
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Dec. 20th, 2004 11:38 amThis morning, as I struggled to achieve consciousness and a level of coherence necessary to work on my diss, I was reading The Physics of Santa and giggling. I read a particular passage to my SO and he said, as he strolled out of the room, "Santa has a time-turner. Duh."
It's beautiful in its simplicity. I was postulating that there were multiple Santas (There Can Be More Than One) and objecting to the idea that only children in Christian Cultures were visited by Santa (very un-Santa of Santa to only visit kids in Christian cultures) but I think the time-tuner hypothesis does solve the entire problem better than the multi-Santa solution. Unless there are many Santas, each with his own time turner.
This rumination on The Santa Problem (TSP)has been brought to you by the Rosa Westphalen Christmas Cheer project. I now return you to your regularly scheduled holiday cheer.
Tomorrow we "celebrate" the shortest day of the year, also know as The Day The Sun Promises to Return. Yay!
It's beautiful in its simplicity. I was postulating that there were multiple Santas (There Can Be More Than One) and objecting to the idea that only children in Christian Cultures were visited by Santa (very un-Santa of Santa to only visit kids in Christian cultures) but I think the time-tuner hypothesis does solve the entire problem better than the multi-Santa solution. Unless there are many Santas, each with his own time turner.
This rumination on The Santa Problem (TSP)has been brought to you by the Rosa Westphalen Christmas Cheer project. I now return you to your regularly scheduled holiday cheer.
Tomorrow we "celebrate" the shortest day of the year, also know as The Day The Sun Promises to Return. Yay!
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Dec. 9th, 2004 12:48 pmI am finally emerging from the month of November (and look, it's only December 9). Thank you all for your supportive comments and emails regarding my meeting anxiety. The paper presentation went well. The Intellectual Hero turned out to be a Big Deal Scholar (tm) and didn't even show for my panel, being apparently both too Big a deal to come or send word about not coming. Still, there were 20 people in the room and eight of those people were my friends. So it was a great environment for a first paper. Whee!
I am working on holiday cheer. I made a mix tape and I'm throwing a Please Sun, Please Come Back party in my class today. Sort of pre-solstice, end of class relax day.
In other news, gacked frompostholedigger. This was too good to pass up. Plus, it's kinda accurate. ;-)
You are a double espresso at three AM.
You are the tortured, nail-biting essence of
coffee. You see visions. You could change the
world if only you were up at the same time as
everyone else. You have created a programming
language that throws errors if the code is not
written in iambic pentameter, and you are
infuriated by the typos in the new edition of
Ulysses. You practice sarcasm as a
form of tantric sex, and your cats have
doctorates. You believe in virgin sacrifice in
a good cause.
What kind of coffee are you?
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I am working on holiday cheer. I made a mix tape and I'm throwing a Please Sun, Please Come Back party in my class today. Sort of pre-solstice, end of class relax day.
In other news, gacked from
postholedigger. This was too good to pass up. Plus, it's kinda accurate. ;-) You are a double espresso at three AM.
You are the tortured, nail-biting essence of
coffee. You see visions. You could change the
world if only you were up at the same time as
everyone else. You have created a programming
language that throws errors if the code is not
written in iambic pentameter, and you are
infuriated by the typos in the new edition of
Ulysses. You practice sarcasm as a
form of tantric sex, and your cats have
doctorates. You believe in virgin sacrifice in
a good cause.
What kind of coffee are you?
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If only we could know the future...
Nov. 17th, 2004 11:13 amThis weekend I am presenting my dissertation research at the American Academy of Religion Annual Meeting in San Antonio TX.
( Intensely Uninteresting Stuff about My Professional Life (TM) )
I'll be gone from Friday morning to late Tuesday night.
**waves**
( Intensely Uninteresting Stuff about My Professional Life (TM) )
I'll be gone from Friday morning to late Tuesday night.
**waves**
I should be writing and I did write about 800 words. And then I gakked this from raggedrose and had some fun filling it out.
( Bold the ones you have done. )
raggedrose and had some fun filling it out. ( Bold the ones you have done. )
